First Blog Ever

Hi everyone, my name is JJ, I am using a blog for the first time and I am quite nervous about it. I have briefly heard of people using blogs before but never thought I would be one of them. Putting my thoughts down on paper has always been easy for me, I have always written out my feelings in dairies or poems, since I was about 8 years old and home life was pretty bad, I found it my way of coping.
I read a brilliant book today that I just couldn't put down, it was by a lady names Anya Peters called abandoned, and it was my inspiration to start this blog, I figured if she could do it living in a car I could do it too.
I don't live in a car, I live in a 2 bedroom house with my sister and we get along well but that wasn't always the case.
No, my fear is of having a job. I am 27 and never had paid work I was diagnosed with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder when I was 21 and suffered severe panic attacks my whole life, due to authority figures, having a boss above me in a job has always giving my panic attacks a chance to appear, and appear they do.
People cannot possibly understand what it is to have panic attacks due to fear of working, it sounds crazy, I sit at home sometimes and wonder if I really am crazy, who else could possibly have a phobia of working?
It doesn't make sense to a lot of people, it doesn't even make sense to me, but if Anya can be brave enough to sit at a library computer and type away on a blog not knowing that she was going to get her miracle, I can too.
I believe in Miracles, is there one for me, too??